Darkness inside Me

I am drowning deeply in these thoughts alone
sitting, staring, into a dark unknown
i close my eyes to shield me from the
darkness dancing around me;

moulding me into what they wanted me to be
haunted and held within these walls
i shiver from the terror of the unknown
because i am not what they see;

pushing past the burning pain inside
sitting, staring, into a dark unknown
I know what is happening and I am helpless,
helpless to help myself;

I want a moment to be real
wanna touch things I don’t feel,
wanna hold on and feel I belong,
it was the comfort that i seeked;

as the dawn of a new day approached,
and the madness of the day came to life,
i am still here trying to find out
who i am, who i’m not and who i wanna be;
no way to know till you be with me..